In one of my favorite podcasts, which I mentioned previously, For the Love with Jen Hatmaker, she asks all her guests “what is saving your life right now?”. I have thought about this question as I have listened to these podcasts over the past month and initially I was unsure of the answer. However, over the past two weeks, the phrase that keeps coming back to me is “coming home”.
When you envision “home” what comes to mind? Is it a place, a feeling, a sound, a sight, or a smell? For me it is all of it. For the longest time after relocating from Washington to Pennsylvania, I wondered if Pennsylvania would ever feel like home to me. It is only over the past few months that I have really begun to embrace my new community, quirks and all, and pull into my driveway and feel like I am home. I rent this cute little 90-year-old red house full of oddities from being built up and out over nearly a century. The house is in a beautiful neighborhood where everyone is on about an acre (including me) with lots of old oak and maple trees. In our neighborhood there are various ponds, and streams and I enjoy the beauty of nature while walking the dogs.
When I walk into my front door, chaos often erupts as I am greeted by two Labradors, two affectionate cats, and, of course, my two rambunctious sons. Half of the time my front room is littered with dirty socks, empty boxes from Amazon and whatever project Messi is working on. Laundry sits on the couch, dog toys provide an obstacle course, and one of the boys has always left a backpack out on the floor. It isn’t that we are slobs, but my sons have not yet mastered picking up after themselves and I have been unable to train the dogs to put their toys away. There are days that the chaos gets to me, but more and more I find myself walking into my home and feeling peace in the chaos because it is mine! There is the business of running to and from activities, juggling chores, refereeing arguments, but also eating together, watching movies, or planning new adventures. This is my family and this is us loving, fighting, laughing, crying and just living life.
Coming home is saving my life right now. Coming home reminds me of God’s grace and the power of redemption. In the wake of one of the darkest periods in my life, God has given me the gift of home.